2008

Tmr national park, sat biometrics, mon hort science

I think I’m dying.

At least I’ve put in my best effort in all my aissignments.

Time is really limited for me to study my test.

Helpless and lost.

I don’t think I know myself as much as I used to anymore. I am living for the sake of living and for the sake of what the society wants me to be and not what I want myself to be.

Sometimes I wonder what will happen to me if I’ve taken another route in my life. Life now is no more about SHE and my world. Simplicity is of course good. WHo doesn’t want a simple life?

The process to decide between a simple life and the life i’ve chosen now is tough and leadin the life i’ve chosen is even tougher.

Time flies here. Always caught up with assignments and sch work. Leaving no time for me to think.

Exams are coming next tues. Studying in the library, 4.20am here. Looking forward to holiday, when I can slow down and sort out my thoughts.

I’m so glad that I’m still able to survive till today. When I first came here, I wanted to give up every time I face something I don’t wanna face. Maybe I’ve been living in my comfort zone for too long.

It’s now 5.01 am in the morning. I’m still stuck in library. Still trying to finish my assignments for this semester before I can start revising for my exams. So sick and tired of Biometrics, Hortscience and writing management plan for national parks…. I need to pace up my speed for my assignments but somehow I just can’t get my brain working… Think my brain is suffering from the post biometrics assignments effect and from all my previous assignments.

I’ve got 4 prac reports for hort science and 1 national park assignments to hand in by sunday. Been killing lots of brain cells since the day I landed in Gatton. I’m so going to have a good rest when the holidays come in June. I think one month should be enough for me to gain back my energy to prepare for next semester.

Reading too much scientific paper is not good for my health also… It takes so many days just for me to understand a two page paper… I pray hard that next sem would be easier without Biometrics….

Finally completed all my assignments for Ecology. Completed project for Biometrics. I hate biometrics. One more assignment for National Parks, 4 more pracs for Hortscience.

I’ve been in Gatton for 3 months without knowing it. Been through alot of ups and down in this 3 months. Good things motivates me to hang on, bad things trained me to become more independent.

A big hello to all my friends out there! I’ve finally settled down in Gatton. I’ve been living without internet for the past few days. That kind of feeling is really terrible. I got a big culture shock when I first reached here.

Gatton is a very small town, with only one cab, afew round abouts… shops closes at 5pm here and the streets are empty on weekends. Cooked food are very ex over here. One KFC burger cost about 5 aussie dollars = $6.40. The best way to fill your stomach is to cook your own food. You won’t get lost in Gatton, because I don’t… if you think you’ve lost your direction, just keep going and you’ll find your way out.

Hm life here is very boring.. my only entertainment here is to visit the supermarkets. I think its good, I can focus more on studies then. Semester starts on 25 Feb, which is coming Monday.

We’ve been here for almost a week. My first four days were spent in our friends’ house at woodlands road. It’s 45 minutes walk to town. It’s really shack to walk to and fro during that period, cause we’ll don’t have any transport and the only way is to walk.

I’m staying on self catered campus hostel. Cook my own food, do my own washing… though life’s boring here, but time flies, cause I’m doing every thing myself… staying in sch is good. I’ve got a kitchen to do to my cooking, a common toliet and bathing area, my room is equiped with heater, bed and stuff. I don’t have to worry about electity and water bills.

It’s summer here now, but due to some climate change here, its hot and sunny during the day and gets freezing cold at night.

I’m getting use to the life here in Gatton. So not to worry about me. Everything is fine here

My Chirstmas this year:

Went to Vivo for KFC with Stephanie, Natalie and Foong after our work at about 3+pm. After that we went wondering ard with Foong for his pizza he wanted to get for his christmas Party.

My christamas eve this year was spent at Orchard till 1+am with Natalie.

Woke up up at 8am this morning and watched Cartoon. Went to sleep at about 9am. After napping a while, I got up and met my friend for a jog and swim. Came back at 4+pm. Had a chat with another friend till 5+pm.

I’m counting down…3 1/2 months… the last time I counted was 6 months… when did time started to fly so fast?

With Oct ending, I’ll be left with 3 months.

Its really scary… I’m entering into a new phase of life soon.

Time is running out… I really got to start my planning…

I was viewing through some ex video clips of SHE. Was trying to find back my lost soul and indeed, through SHE, I managed to put my heart back to my work…

Some people ard me always wonder why do I like SHE so much… They are my idol, my learning model, my source of motivation. The reason why? Is because of the spirit that they hold. They are never afraid to make mistakes, voice out what they feel, dare to dream, dare to achieve. Putting in the best effort in whatever they do.

Fan, I’ve just recovered from my internal injury at work.

I’ve just passed my final theory today. I was so happy when i passed, but now it seems like there’s nothing to be happy about.

I’ve grown up and decision making is unavoidable. Making a decision that can please everyone is definately very hard. I got to think hard and sometimes until i’ve used up almost all my brain cells…

Work, had taught me that even till the last minute, decision made can still change.

Its been a long time since i last came here.

As usual, there’s alot of unanswerable questions in my head.

Frankly speaking, life is not as hard as last year.

I’ve got all the time i need for SHE, rest, play and sleep.

But I don’t seem to feel happy.

After graduating from NP, I slept all I like, rest as much as I can, play as hard as I could play and queue as long as I can to see SHE.

Life is as peaceful as it can be.

This was what I chose to be.

And I realised this is not what I want.

25 August is the day I’m waiting for. A day to change my life.